im just a girl

if i ignore u, dont ignore me back

try and get my attention

if i brush away ur hand as u try to hold it,

grab it and let me noe u really care.

DONT JUST GIVE UP !

if u get the feeling that i want to leave you,

dont just sit back and watch me
dont say
'YOU CAN LEAVE ME IF U WANT TO'
fight for me !
tell me how much u want me to stay
im just a girl
and i need to feel needed sometimes
:)

this is my reward, GOD?

ya ALLAH, is this my reward?

is this the best way for me?

if yes, i am redha with ur punishment :')

sekiranya ini untuk penghapus segala dosa,

aku redha seadanya.

ya ALLAH,

kau tak akan berikan hambamu dugaan dluar kemampuan kan?

so means aku bole face this challenge,

but for me its so so so terlampau,

its so unexpected !

but nevermind,

im trusted with you.

dengan adanya kau, maha pencipta.

aku hanya berlindung pada engkau sahaja.

ya ALLAH,

sekiranya kau mengambil kebahagiaan ku skrg ni utk dgantikan kebahagiaan yang akan datang,

aku sanggup menerimanya.

yeah, this is my punishment in this world.

untuk aku beringat didunia ini hanya kehidupan sementara :)

    

ya ALLAH, 

sesungguhnya engkau menciptakan aku dan kepada engkau aku kembali,

just take my soul when u are ready,

i dunt want to be here anymore,

i just want to meet my mom that ive never seen since i was born.

yeah. this my life.

that ive nothing anymore,

i only have you for me to move forward.

thanks ya ALLAH :)

heavy rain on me

ya allah, setiap dugaan yang kau bagi kepada seseorang,

kau percaya bahawa orang tu bole endure the problem,

but dugaan kali ni sangat sangat mencabar,

but kau takan bagi dugaan tu kalau aku tak mampu,

so its mean aku mampu face dugaan ni,

just sometime aku leka dengan problem ni,

mbuatkan aku suka salahkan takdir,

aku redha ap yang kau create skrg ni,

even skrg kau dah tarik 1 kebahagiaan dalam hidup aku,

aku redha,

just aku hope, aku dapat bertahan lagi untuk hari mencabar yang akan datang,

tengs ya allah sbb tak putus bagi aku rezeki even aku tengah susah skrg.

kau yang maha adil.

siput sedut masak lemak cili api

arghhhhhh !!!!!

tension tension tension !

dah bertaun aku cari binatang ni tapi tak jumpa,

haishhhh

bulan puasa je bersepah bende ni knp bulan april ke may ke susah nak cari bende ni

siyes nak sgt3 ni

da lama gile tak makan

bertaun dah kot aku cari

:(

cari kat google pon ta jumpa gak

plis sapa sapa yang tau kat mana ada jual siput seduk masak lemak cili api ni

bole dm o pm kat fb o twitter

im craving for that !

oke lately dah start practical tak banyak masa for myself,

sometime rasa mcm selekeh sgt sbb keje keje keje 24/7

no have time for myself for doing some facial, scrub, mask

omg !

habiskan masa keje and tido je

sometime makan pon tak

f&b department

all day dgn food

selalu buat keje but tak makan, tgk org makan

siyesly terkeliur

now in my head jus thinking about my special dishes

1st is

LAMB CHOP

damn ! siyesly rasa mcm dah lama tak makan lamb chop,

aku just pegi masuk mama grill for lamb chop but its out of stock then aku oder sirloin,

but its not same :(

pity to me ouh :'(

then second im craving for macaroni cheese secret recipe

this also da lama tak makan

wuuuu :(

sedapnye dapat makan,

fully of cheese

sedapnye

third is CHICKEN !

mcd o kfc

i love both especially mcd

i think if pegi mcd je mesti oder ayam,

kalau tade ayam baru oder beger,

haha

aigggooo

hope esok dapat makan salah satu ni

plisss pliss pliss

i want that badly !!!

white roses

dari dulu, aku suka sangat ngn rose putih

tatau napa

and aku hope when aku dah ada rumah sndiri nnti nak tanam white rose byk and buat white rose garden

mesti cool kan

pastu bole baca buku dgn tenang kat situ

howwww swweettt

<3 <3 <3

practical

starting from nex wek 9 april 2012

aku will starting my practical kat melaka

urm, 1st rasa mcm besh sgt sbb dapat kuar dari dungun,

dapat stay kat melaka

tayah tgk dungun lagi kan,

but bile dah nak due date ni

rasa takot gile

takot kene buli

takot kene marah

takot taleh bg fully comitment

just hope i will do the best for my work

ari ari mak and ayah berpesan

nnti practical jangan malas malas, buat keje betul2,

senyum selalu,

jgn layan customer tak elok, bla bla bla

sampai pagi tai tgh makan pon bebel bebel lagi

haishhh

tu buat aku lgi takot :(

hope nnti sume oke

membe oke

tak jumpe membe y nak gado n cari pasal je

hope so

just wish me will do the best oke 

:D

ill be missing you.

starting form end of 2009 ive been here for taking diploma in hotel management,

its about more than 2 years,

lots of memories have created here

jumpa membe yang mmg ta pnh kenal lgsung but until now stil stick together,

memories of my boyfriend,

haha. 

1st time keluar merantau kat negeri org,

ive learn so many about people,

how people judge someone,

urm, thats make me matured,

kenal mana satu kawan n mana satu lawan,

but end of this mac aku back to asal,

melaka.

hewhewhew

bialah melaka tu kuno o what so eva lah kan,

im proud of being that,

:D

<3 <3 <3

so, for dungun,

ill be missing you k?

jangan nangis nangis tau,

t end of this year aku dtg balik tau.

promise :)

friend

ALHAMDULILLAH,

tengs to Allah sebab giving him to me,

men y always support me when im giving up something,

selalu advice when im doing wrong,

selalu care when im sick,

selalu ajar when im blur in study,

selalu happy kan bile saya sedih,

sentiasa ada bila sy sedih and needed,

KAWAN yang kuat bebel bebel, haha

sometime rasa annoy gile but sometime comel kan,

bile laki dah start membebel.

so, sy hope awak akan sentiasa ada dsisi oke,

awak lah kawan, abang and teman dalam hidup saya,

tengs for everything,

take care of ur healthy oke.

jangan sakit sakit,

tengs again.

p/s : pic taken, dhoteliers wonderland award dinner 2012 :D

heaven

tengs sebab :

byk bersaba dengan prandai degil saya,

panas baran saya,

kuat merajuk,

keep waiting for me,

layan saya dengan baik even saya selalu cari pasal,

selalu motivate saya untuk study,

slalu ada dengan saya,

 sooo..

i love you so much !

:D

dont leave me

hey you !

listen here oke,

kau taleh tinggalkan aku even mcm mana keadaan sekali pon,

faham?

kuatkan semangat oke,

yang penting kau taleh tinggalkan aku dari dunia ni,

kerja kau kat sini jaga aku

plisss.

aku sayang kau lah 

:(

this for you, yes FOR YOU

I heard that you’re settled down,

That you found a girl and you’re married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it,

I had hoped you’d see my face,

And that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over,

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don’t forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

“Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,”

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,

Only yesterday was the time of our lives,

We were born and raised in a summer haze,

Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it,

I had hoped you’d see my face,

And that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over,

Nothing compares,

No worries or cares,

Regrets and mistakes, they’re memories made,

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don’t forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

“Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,”

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead.

fooling around me

HAHAHAHAHAHA

CONGRATES sebab dah berjaya menjadikan diri saya seperti orang bodoh

tengs lah kan

feel great and better now

trust me

ill didnt trust u again.

n plis, i dun want to see ur face or hear ur voice again,

yess. i really mean it and im deadly siyes about this.

i wish ur will happy with guls outhere.

HAHA.

wtv. BYE.

;D

escalate

otw pegi town then dalam kereta tibe tibe kua lagu ni kat radio
macam layan je kan
so terus cari lirik kat google


Pernah ada rasa cinta antara kita

Kini tinggal kenangan
Ingin ku lupakan semua tentang dirimu
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
bintangku
Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
Di sini aku merindukan dirimu
Kini ku coba mencari penggantimu
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
kekasih

pernah ada rasa cinta

antara kita

kini tinggal kenanga

#speechless

love is gone and back

cinta datang dan pergi,

apa yang pergi selalu nya takan kembali,

apa yang pergi selalu nya akan ada penganti,

apa yang pergi seharusnya kita redhai dan tidak kesali,

sebab stiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya,

sooo..

oke, now aku akan lepaskan die sepenuhnya.

hes not mine.

just hope die happy with other guls out there,

so close the book and open the new one.

2012,

welcome !

ill hope my life will b more meaningful without him

:)

and plis, people out there plis dun judge a bad things from me.
dun act like u noe evrything bcause u DONT !
so plis,

let me live in peace.

for you, love.

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How do be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid

To fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday

waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything

Take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath,

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a 

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

One step closer

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darling, don't be afraid,

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

*i have loved you for a 2nd years and ill love you for a thousand more year.

:D

korean during semester break

1st movie

playfull kiss

cite ni ad someone yang bagi kat aku. :P mula mula cam malas nak tengok sbb intro die boring. and aku tgk muka that gul mcm ta comel je and laki tu macam bukan taste aku kan. hahahahha. pastu aku paksa jugak diri aku untuk tengok muvie ni. lama lama besh jugak. siyesly cite ni besh, sampai tgk 2x episod 15, nak tau episod 15 tu story pasal apa then tengok sendiri. heheheheh :P

2nd movie

personal taste

cite ni tatau pasal apa sebab ta habis tengok sebab perempuan tu tak cute sangat. hahhahaha. haishhh. patutlah orang selalu choose pretty gul to become an actress. pengaruh yang besar sebab muka perempuan ni je buat aku malas nak tgk cite ni lagi. hahahahaha. kejam gile.

3rd is hana yori dango 2

hewhew. oke sumpah cite ni besh tahap dewa nye. siyesly aku cari cite ni dah lama sebab aku nak tau ending die sebab hana yori dango 1 cite die tergantung and aku suka sangat episod last die. masa domyouji tu propose makino. omg ! swet sangat2. if korang ta minat korea pon jus watch the last episod in this movie, then u will feel like heaven.

woowwww. 

siyesly ta tipu.

next

my gulfren is gumiho

oke. cite ni sgt besh sebab unik and that gul pon siyesly cantik gile. cite die pasal fox and couple with human. shes have a super power. cool kan. dah macam super mak dah. haha.

next is pasta :)

mesti ramai je yang tengok drama ni kan sbb cite ni ada kat tv2 pukul 5-6pm. but sekarang dah habis dah. i thought aku sorg je y minat korea in my family. but act adik aku pon minat jugak, dorg y aja aku tgk cite ni, mula mula aku igt cite ni boring sebab pelakon die cam muka tua je. but ari ari dah dorg bukak je cite ni tpaksa jugak tengok and lama lama pon boleh accept, and cite ni pon mingatkan aku zaman kitchen dulu kan. haha.

siyesly rindu kitchen plus bile tgk master chef kan. 

and last skali im currently watching this movie

secret garden

act movie ni dah lama ada dalam external, but ta rasa nak tengok sebab tatau. urm for the 1st impression, aku ingatkan cite ni boring sebab actress die cam boring. tapi aku dah boring sangat duk kat rumah kan sebab tak balik balik dungun ni haa. so aku paksa jugak diri aku untuk tengok cite ni. semalam aku start tgk. tapi aku skip episod 1 sebab intro y boring. so skrg aku dah tgk sampai episod 7, not bad. movie y sgt interesting sebab laki tu jadi pmpuan n pmpuan tu jadi laki. macam cite its a gul boy things. but this is drama version in korea. hewhew. siyesly besh. 

so inilah series yang aku tengok during cuti sem ni.

24/7 with korea. not just in drama, but aku layan jugak lagu2 korea like sistar. ouh my. sumpah dorg sgt cool. t-ara, super junior for sure, iu :), beast and lastly snsd.

## finish ##

*kamsa hamnida :D

min yee eun hyuk

eun hyuk, 

saranghae

:D

<3 <3 <3

boyfie

yeah, 

thats my boyfie,

i love him so damn much.

muacss muacss.

so guls out there,

hes mine.

so plis. jangan ganggu kami lagi.

MAT LUTHFI. iloveyou.

<3

*prasan gile aku nih, adehh.

hahaha :p

special entry for my LOVE

askum mak, nenek

adik datang arini ziarah mak and nenek.

ta lupa juga pada arwah pak lang and atuk,

sudah lama rasanya adik tak ziarah mak,

sampai rumput pun dah panjang kat sini

maafkan adik mak.

sebab tak datang bersihkan kubur ni,

tapi arini adik datang utk bersihkan dan ucapkan kata rindu yang teramat pada mak

hanya doa adik iringkan untuk mak

19 tahun mak pergi tinggalkan adik sorang

19 tahun adik belajar macam2 pengalaman hidup

maafkan adik sekiranya selama ni tidak menjadi anak y baik

anak yang harus dbanggakan oleh ibu bapa

adik tau mak mesti tau kekurangan pada adik kan

adik janji akan jadi anak yang baik kali ni

adik janji tak buat perangai lama

adik janji tak burukkan nama mak lagi

sungguh adik merindui mak

ALLAH terlalu cepat mengambil mak dari adik

22 FEBRUARY 1992

kenapa tlalu awal?

kenapa mak tak tengok adik membesar sampai sekarang?

knp mak tinggalkan adik?

mungkin mak tlalu baik sehingga Allah tak saba ingin mak pergi kerumah nya

dan ini membuatkan adik lagi kuat untuk menjalani hidup ddunia ni mak.

adik rindukan mak, kalau mak free, mak datang lah jumpa adik even dalam mimpi ye.

i love you mom !

doakan kejayaan adik dunia dan akhirat

:'(

*ya Allah, kau tempatlah mak ku, nenek ku dan seluruh ahli keluarga ku di tempat orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh.